I TRUST HIM ANYWAY

What we look at is what we invest ourselves in, are we looking at Jesus the Author and Finisher of our faith, the truth, the way and the life.
Are we looking at circumstances that seem to grow the more we look.
Are we looking at others, are we looking at ourselves.

Recently I spent too much time look at my circumstances, my disappointments, my failures to the point I felt very inadequate to be who God has
called me to be and do what he has called me to do, why when he has promised me he would be there every step of the way,
I spent time looking at myself instead of him, looking at my own limitations, my limited abilities instead of his infinite abilities.

Too much time looking at the wrong things brings us to a place of defeat, we feel like we are surround by hurdles that we can’t jump over, walls that we can’t knock down
and Mountains we can’t climb and yet when I saw the error of my ways and I turned to look into the eyes of my ever loving Father those hurdles didn’t seem so big
those walls didn’t looks so thick and those mountains didn’t look so high, it’s only when you can look into the face of God and tell him you trust him anyway.
I trust you God anyway, my situations is desperate but I trust you anyway, my health is not good but I trust you anyway, my family don’t believe in you but I trust you anyway,
I don’t know how I’m going to feed my family but I trust you anyway, I trust you anyway.

Why? Because you are God, you know the bigger picture, you love me with condition, You see the end from the beginning, I trust you anyway, I love you anyway.
He is always with you in the desperate place or in the place of victory.
He is trust worthy. I look back and he was always there, from my very beginning he was there.
I look back and see every place he has bought me into victory, seen every mountain he has help me scale and every valley he has helped me cross.
I TRUST HIM ANYWAY

The Goodness of God is seen in the Grace of God

Every person ever saved has experienced the goodness of God because the Grace of God is in the goodness of God and it is by Grace we are saved not of ourselves but of God.

We may go through life wondering where God’s goodness is we have to look no further than our salvation, we were bought with the blood and the sacrifice of God’s only Son the Son that was sacrificed before we even loved God while we were still opposing God, and yet he made the sacrifice so that we would come to know him in a real and very personal way. God is always been good. Personally I don’t want to live my life without the Grace of God meeting me where I am, without his goodness and mercy following me, what purpose would my life have if I didn’t know the one who created it.

Life began with the Great I AM, good began with God, He is the ultimate giver of life, he shows what LOVE truly is, He shows what patience is, What Kindness is, What mercy is, He is the ultimate Truth, He is the way, He is Wisdom.

He is the Heavenly Father, the one who loves you without condition. HE is my God and he can be yours too.
He is the one who walks with me on the darkest night, in the deepest valley and on the highest mountain, he laughs with me and cry’s with me and for me, he sings over me, he intercedes for me, he sees all of me and loves me with an everlasting God. A Love I neither deserve nor have I earned but it is given freely.
Do you know who that makes me it makes me a child of the Loving God.

Laughter

It has come to my attention that we need to laugh more.
Laugh a little harder, a little longer at anything and at everything.
Laughter is a good medicine, a releaser of stress, a bringer of joy and a lightener to a heavy or fretful mood.
Laughter makes your face light up and your eyes sparkle, laughter makes you attractive and a delight to watch.
See the humour in even the most desperate situations and you will feel better

Time to Trust

A time to Trust.

Thinking over this year, the ups the downs, the laughs the tears.
I can honestly say I am looking forward to the dawn of a new year as the sun comes closer to setting on this one.
A year full of anxiety and worry, yet this year has taught me something I never quite been able to learn before and that is to trust God in the midst of it all.
To have peace instead of anxiety, to have hope instead of fear, to know I am loved and not alone when I feel completely abandoned at times.
Looking back over this year as much as I am looking forward to the new hope that a new year brings I wouldn’t change a thing because in it all I have learnt
that God truly does have my life in the palm of his hand and He won’t ever let me go.

Learning to stand on his promises, learning to find peace in the storm. Learning to reach out for help, I don’t have to do this journey alone, I don’t have
to be superwomen. Also learning to be content and confident to just be me.

I reached the time to learn that valuable lesson that will last me a life time, He is worth trusting in.

Don’t drop your Sword

Dearly beloved I ask you please don’t drop your sword, don’t put it down, don’t mislay it.
I have hidden your words in my heart so that I might not sin against you.
I awoke this morning with a word in my spirit, you were born into a fight so fight.
What do I fight, I fight not against flesh and blood but against principalities and powers in high places.

What was Jesus weapon of choice – LOVE.
Love can soften the hardest of hearts, can break every chain, can cross every cultural divide, Love is a language all people can see and understand.
He choose to see the people and love them and deactivating the spiritual powers involved in their lives.
The Word of God is applicable to every situation, the Spirit leads us to life and to victory.
The Word and the Spirit work together, to bring victory and freedom to our lives and then we work with them to help bring victory in others lives.

To be able to work with God to help and love others to break the chains of bondage and loose the burdens of this world we need to know the Word and know the Spirit.
We were born into a war some of our adversaries stare us straight in the face we know what they are and then their are those whom can go undetected until the jump up and grab you.
Here in the western world, we have comfort and we don’t have to fight to keep our lives because we love God we become complacent and apathetic not sharing our love of
God because what will people think of us and we don’t want to offend.

Jesus is the desire of all nations, we need to live as He lives and love as He loves and not back down from the words he spoke. We need to walk humbly with our God but fiercely love Him
and Love Him with all we are, with all our heart all our mind and all our soul.

We forget what it’s like not to have peace, we forget what it’s like not to have freedom and an unshakable hope, yet so many don’t.
They are hungry but they don’t know what for. They try everything and nothing soothes the soul like the Love of God can and does.

Many of us live with the greatest treasure there is a God who loves us and yet we don’t share whom HE is or His love for others.
Take up your sword open your heart and ears to the Spirit and march on don’t ever look back.

I will trust HIM

No matter what life looks like what comes and what goes, no matter how many valley’s I go through no matter how many mountains I climb I will trust in the greatness of my God and I will see His goodness displayed in my life.
When I am weak He is strong, all I need to do is stand and when having done all to stand I need to keep standing look up to the hills where does my help come from it comes from the Lord the maker of Heaven and earth.

When all around we feel like we are standing on sinking Sand he lifts us up and puts us on the rock whom is also our shield.
Lift your eyes sweet child he whispers, Trust in me, and even in the busyness of life those gentle words bring peace and quiet the turmoil of my soul.

Will this be my last sunrise!

Fear gripped my heart as I arose that morning, even though it seemed like all other mornings. I arose early to be the first awake to get breakfast for the household and start my daily chores.
I had never dreamed as a small girl that my life would take this turn, that my village would be destroyed and I would be taken into slavery. Nor had I dreamed that I would possibly loose my
life at such a young age because of my faith, and yet as persecution of my people come closer to this city I knew any day could be my last. I laughed out loud to myself now for the fear was slipping away as I remember Pauls word “to live is Christ to die is gain”.

I wanted the gain so much, to leave this life and behind and to be caught up into the arms of my Saviour, only since knowing Him had departing this life seemed almost more appealing than living.
For many this would seem strange but once you know Jesus you realise exactly what was lost in the Garden that day when Eve ate that damn apple. To walk with the God of creation and speak to Him face to face that is all my heart longs for.

And now as the whispers on the street became louder that the persecution of Christian was becoming sport in this City I knew that maybe that longing in my heart would become a reality.
Oh God how can we survive it would seem they are killing us as fast as we are bringing people to truth, bringing your children home to you.
Is this how it will be till you come again.

I feared at the final moment I would fail you, as I would have to chose between you and my life but I have seen my fellow brothers and sisters killed because they would not forsake you Lord and the peace that would flicker across there faces as they breathed there last the comfort that seemed have in such traumatic times I knew you were there with them.

Your presence in our lives brings peace when nothing else can. I had felt I was born for great things and yet maybe this was it. The great thing was to die for what I had lived for.
The household I am a servant in is extremely wealthy and I can tell they love me, they are kind and compassionate and treat me well I could not have chosen a better family they treat me like family only you Lord could have done this for me. They even listen politely when I share of you and I had seen a keen interest in them. But still I don’t know if they can keep me safe from the extreme hatred toward followers of Christ.

Yet I had not kept quiet about you Jesus for you have changed my life so dramatically, I once lived in fear and now I live in faith, I once was full of hatred and jealousy and now I am full of love and compassion it’s only you who could have done that to me and for me.

I have daily chosen to put my trust in you, when all had seem lost, when I a free women was captured and sold as a slave my heart within me seemed to want to die, but yet I felt you so close, so very close, your presence was tangible, my body full of peace and I had remembered your scripture says that you have a plan for me of good and not of evil to give me a future and a hope.

As I waited to be auctioned off more like an animal or possession than had a human, I knew you were with me. The man bidding for me had kind eyes and a compassionate look on His face he was the only one in the room with those features everyone else seemed so cold. Thankfully no one really wanted a Jews girl and it didn’t seem to bother him at all. I knew Lord you had bought him here just for me. I was right He is kind and compassionate.

Now as the my life seemed to be in danger with every passing day I again felt that same peace all around me and I knew you were close.
Lord I pray that whatever fate may befall me that I would glorify you.

It’s really all about him and all about me!!

The longer I live the more I learn the more I realise that it’s all about God and all about me and all about me and God.
So to make sense of that it really is all about relationship.
It’s not about fame or being known, it’s not about what church I go to or what cool group I hang out with. It’s not about the house with the white picket fence and the cool sports car in the garage. It’s not about a large bank balance.

It’s about knowing God and His direction for your life, it’s about loving God with all of me and than letting His love flow out through me. It’s about noticing the one that God would have me reach my hand out to today.

It’s about noticing the roses that smell sweetly that God created just for me. It’s about seeing the simple mercies that God sends my way everyday. It’s about seeing the God in each individual that I meet.

It’s about having a life that demonstrates I live under the rules of another kingdom, His kingdom, It’s about having a life that points directly to Him.

But at the end of it all once my life on this earth that is but a vapour ends and my life on the other side of eternity begins it’s about stepping into the embrace of the one I love and the one that loves me.

I can see it so clearly like a picture. Stepping out of my earthly suit and into my heavenly gleaming gown, that sparkles so brightly I can hardly see. And than He appears the one whom I love, with a radiant smile and eyes that twinkle with love and joy.
He takes my arm and we glide along the streets of gold that sparkle like crystals. As we walk a crowd gathers on both sides.
Leading me onto that Dance floor that seems to be made from one massive diamond it’s like dancing on a disco ball with light coming up from all different direction, oh how it will be!!!!!!

The Lion and The Lamb

The Lion and the Lamb
Our Saviour is known as the Lion of the Tribe of Judah and yet HE is the Lamb who was slain.
We need Jesus to be both in our lives we need Him to be the one whom protects us and fights for us like a Lion and yet we need Him to be the one who takes away our sin like the sacrificial Lamb.
I am so glad that in the Word he is declared as both. On the days I feel a little defenceless and need to know I am protected I am glad He is my Lion.
On days when I can’t seem to get anything right I am glad that He is my Lamb.
As my Saviour He has covered all bases. Only God could put the whole picture together for us.
He is not defenceless like when pictured on the cross that was Him as my Sacrificial Lamb and yet when He as rose He was strong and powerful like a Lion.
He left the earth having conquered sin and death and held the keys in His hand, he arose with a mighty roar declaring IT IS FINISHED!!
Not only did He arise with that mighty ROAR He has placed that same ROAR deep inside you and me by His Spirit. As His children as His Body let your Roar start to come out and lets arise with boldness and courage, don’t hide like a lamb but strut around like a Lion king of the Jungle fearless in faith, kind in your courage and live truly live with a joy coming from knowing who you are and knowing your KING.
Our Saviour our Lion and Our Lamb is so much more than we can ever comprehend, the more He reveals Himself to me the more I fall deeper in Love with Him.
Ask Him to reveal more facets of Himself to you today and fall deeper in Love with your Lion and Your Lamb. He is the author of the greatest Love story ever written where one worthy has laid down His life for those unworthy.

A Season to Dream

With the gentle breeze blowing and the day so blue, something inside me has come alive and is whispering dream again, hope big again.
The year has been a busy one and somewhere along the way my focus has shifted but like a breath of fresh air the Spirit has directed me and to changed my focus back to Him once again.

I love that about God. He knows when your ready to receive direction. He gives us the freedom to travel along our path but when we are ready to ask Him for direction He gives it to us.

Dreaming again, believing in God’s goodness in all situations has left me with a light and happy heart. Knowing each step I am taking a step with Him and I am learning.
Not only am I learning but I am listening more closely to the Spirit.

As much as I wish I could get it all right all the time it would mean my dependence on Him would be less, when really this life is all about relationship, my relationship with Him and my relationship with others.

Jesus came so our relationship could be restored to the Father. Our relationship with the Father meant that much He was willing to send Jesus just so our relationships could be restored.

As you go about your day think on what you love most about your relationship with God.

I love most that because my relationship has been restored to God that I am never alone and I am free!!!!!